I FORGOT TO TELL YOU SOMETHING TERRIBLE and BEAUTIFUL

Watering this small plant

covered with road dust, half dead in tire tracks

and gasoline fumes, I forgot to tell you about

what is here and elsewhere,

How as a child driving in the car at night

I would lean into the immensity of my father

And feel suddenly safe, fear falling from me

Like water, and I would remember the overgrown

Thicket behind our house near where my ma hung out the laundry

And where sometimes I would go to feel something,

Anything in the scattering sky, wondering

why I was forever being born

How way past older now

Rebounding from the usual flinty remarks

I wished for before, emerging in the unseasonable

heat, looping up and doubling down and across the arbitrary

Freeway ,  I come across these blazing sparks of memory:

Arc flung up against the baffling sky